If Only

If only you could see it in my eyes
The burning passion that lies behind them
Aching for your touch, your kiss, your embrace.
If only you were unafraid to let yourself see
To let yourself be absorbed
To look back at me with the same desire I have for you.

If only you could feel it in my touch
The fragility and weakness of my body
How one wrong move on your part could snap me in two.
If only you would let yourself hold me the way you yearn to
To let yourself be swept away by a sea of emotion and passion
To hold me close to you and never want to let me go.

If only you could hear in my words
The care and compassion they hold for you
Holding back on the words I long to speak.
If only you would say how you feel
Say what your heart screams but your tongue silences
Fill the room with your sweet words of affection.

If only you would hold me close to you
Look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me.

Let The Song Sing

A winding up boaster told it all
The weekend sun beat down from above
And you noticed while looking for maps
That in the glove there was a tape from the past
And it read 'a mix for my love' of the best.

You shot me a glance
That shot through my chest
That left me motionless.
While the hillside flew by
Out of the corner of my eye
You tapped nervously on the dash.

"Please don't take this wrong" you began
"But I don't want to hear your music again.
It's worth nothing and I can't compete
With these memories that you create and keep.
Like a fool or a friend I would pass, you would sing
And I realise now what you're actually singing
It makes me feel less than I am.
So no more tunes
And no more songs"

The passion then pushes us down.

The thought made me sick
But I loved you more
So I took your advice and I broke my guitar
Stuck a knife in my throat to cut my vocal chord.
And let the sound wind down
Until there was none.

Then one morning I heard you sing
It came over me like a wave that pours in
I picked up a pen and a scrap that I found
And I wrote and I wrote till the ink ran out
And I dug in the edge to make sure it sunk in
Then I did it again to make sure that there was nothing left out.
Then I realised with uncertainty
That you can't be afraid or threatened here by me.
Because you too now have become a part of the meaning
Of what is in these lines
And what is in-between.

Don't pull me under
I won't let you dream
From whatever you've been to whatever you'll be
I hope you understand the responsibillity..

To always

Always.


Let the song sing.

The Poet And The Pendulum.

I'm afraid. I'm so afraid.
Being raped again and again and again
I know I will die alone, but loved

You live long enough to hear the sounds of guns
Long enough to hear yourself screaming every night
Long enough to see your friends betray you.

For years I have been strapped unto this alter.
Now I only have 3 minutes and counting.
I only wish the tide would catch me first
And give me a death I always longed for.

A Year From Now.

Complete in total adoration
My gift to you - my heart was yours.

In 10 weeks you shaved it.
In 1 night you murdered it.

Torn from my chest and laid at your feet
That first step you took was the worst
Since then you've walked 1000 miles in silence and short remarks
I still have these memories but we'll never see what we could have been

Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember, coz that's all you can do
We'll never make another memory. We'll never make another memory.

I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today
This time I thought things were real. You said they were. What happened?
You were a priority, was I an option?

I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
You knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart.
I'm sorry it wasn't enough.

So we'll go our own ways and hopefully you'll remember the things I told you
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this but I guess I've learned from that.

But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake. I just wish the story didn't end this way.

Coz I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.

Lights Out

I'm done pretending. I refuse to be a part of your petty little games any more.
You have failed to find whats left of the love and decency your puny soul possesses.
I will suck you dry again.
Some are not worth saving. You are one of those some.
You are such a pretty mess. But all messes must at some point be cleaned up.
I will choke the life within.

Now you want to take me down, down into the pits of your own personal hell.
Ha! As if I even care.
I am the monster in your head. Your own personal deamon.
And I thought you'd learnt by now. Karma comes back and bites you on the ass.
It seems you haven't yet. You're just as naive as you were when I left.
I am the venom in your skin, slowly sapping what little life you have left.

And now your life is broken.

After the lights go out on you, after your worthless life is through, I'll remember how you screamed.

I am suffocating. Choking violently
You have failed to pull me into your ways.
I will drag you down again.
Life is unrelenting. And so am I when I want to be.
Feeding lies into my head, trying to poison my mind with your words.
I will feed the lies you live.

Now you want to take me down, down into the pits of your own personal hell.
Ha! As if I even care.
I am the monster in your head. Your own personal deamon.
And I thought you'd learnt by now. Karma comes back and bites you on the ass.
It seems you haven't yet. You're just as naive as you were when I left.
I am the venom in your skin, slowly sapping what little life you have left.

And now your life is broken.

After the lights go out on you, after your worthless life is through, I'll remember how you screamed.

I can't afford to care.

Intensity In 10 Cities

I'm not the one that you want, I'll only let you down.
And I'm pretty sure that you've caught on.
And you can say that 'Oh, I'm just feeling sorry for my...'

I think it's every time I walk into a room
a silence so sudden that I seem to hear it
Smiles turn to frowns
Contact saying that you are the rain on their parade.

And how long could you hang on to a word?
Tell me, how long could you hang on to a word?

I'm not the one that you want, I'll only let you down.
And I'm pretty sure that you've caught on.
And you can say that 'Oh, I'm just feeling sorry for myself'

Or maybe it's all eyes on her
in love with ego and intention
the eyes that are just begging me for more.
This is gone and I can see it
your head is full of words,
full of words that don't mean anything.

And how long could you hang on to a word?
Tell me, how long could you hang on to a word?

I'm not the one that you want, I'll always let you down.
And I'm pretty sure that you've caught on.
And you can say that 'Oh, I'm just feeling sorry for myself'

I'm not the one that you want, I'll always let you down.
And I'm pretty sure that you've caught on.
And you can say that 'Oh, I'm just feeling sorry for myself'
If that's how you feel, then what's there to do?
I'll keep this feeling in my heart
but when you look in my eyes, you will know the truth.

Without You

Without you, the ground thaws
the rain falls
the grass grows

Without you, the seeds root
the flowers bloom
the children play

The stars gleam
the poets dream
the eagles fly
without you

The Earth turns
the sun burns
but I die, without you

Without you, the breeze warms
the girl smiles
the cloud moves

Without you, the tides change
the boys run
the oceans crash

The crowds roar
the days soar
the babies cry
without you

The moon glows
the river flows
but I die without you

The world revives
colors renew
but I know blue
only blue
lonely blue
willingly blue
Without you

Without you, the hand gropes
the ear hears
the pulse beats

Without you, the eyes gaze
the legs walk
the lungs breathe

The mind churns
the heart yearns
the tears dry without you

Life goes on
but I'm gone
'cause I die, without you